Timing......

Have you ever wondered why things happen when they do?  And how they do?  I got an opportunity a couple of months ago to do what would have been the epitomy of my professional goals.  It required taking over 2/3 of a pay cut.  Putting my student loans on hold.  Moving.  Working 24/7 for 3 years.  And the position was there.  For the taking.  And I only thought twice about it.  Well, maybe three times.  And then again today.  And it got me thinking about how things change and why God's timing is like it is. 

Of course I don't want to dive back into the dregs of academia.  (Let me make it clear - academia is not the dregs--but I'm trying to make it sound less appealing.  And I would have been the dregs of academia, at the beck and call of an attending.)  But then, what an experience to shape a person.  And a career. 

I love my house.  And my husband.  And my town.  I like my job.  And I'm too old to go back in time.  There are other life goals I've moved on to.  It's not even an option. But there is still a little a part that leaped with joy over the possibility - even it it will never happen.  I told Kyle and he said, "If this is what you've always dreamed of...let's go."  And even though we couldn't possibly go - isn't he amazing?? 

So, here it is.  I turned it down.  Another degree.  A specialty certification. A totally different path.  And I'm at peace with that decision.  However, if you're listening, God, let's try to steer the path to something equally amazing okay??  That would make me feel a little bit better about the whole deal.  A day late.  A dollar short.  That's me.

It's a good thing I'm happy!!